Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Change of Plans

You might not be surprised to hear this but, I'm sick. I got a sore throat on Thanksgiving and that developed into a cold with...wait for it, waiiiiit for it...a cough. Yep. And guess what that means? No surgery. The doctor was worried that given my pneumonia issues this year, I'd be at too much risk of  developing it again post-surgery. So it's off. Possibly to be re-scheduled for next week or possibly next year (as in Jan/Feb). Whatever. I'm over it. I'm over everything.

When to have the surgery leaves things in flux. I do not like flux. I like predictability and routine. I am human, after all. And not a young, spontaneous, come-what-may variety human but an older, more staid variety. I have memories of spontaneity, memories I can't quite remember but wouldn't mind returning to in the future. Or at least that's how I feel today, while quietly engaging in a bit of a tantrum over said change of plans.

I don't have much more to say at the moment. This may go down as my shortest blog post of 2013. Speaking of 2013, it's nearing the end, which means...my birthday is also near. Soon, yours truly will mark having been alive 43 years, entering my 44th. Birthdays are an interesting marker of time, an asterisk on the calendar that causes you to take stock of things. Which I do not wish to do. I do not like flux, and I do not like taking stock. Even the idea of birthday cake is not fun. Oh boy am I wallowing. And in the midst of the holidays. Wallowing and Christmas just don't go well together.

I'd better wrap this up before I say things that will reveal just how imperfect and moody I am. Oh wait, too late for that.

I'll close with a few happy pictures to ward off urges of hara-kiri.

The kidlets with the Christmas tree.
We were at my friend Michelle's house for dinner. The kids had made homemade pizzas and were eating at the table together. I thought the scene was cute and wanted to snap a picture. There were four kids sitting at the table and this is what happened when I got out my camera.
Kidlets hiding under the table.
 Of course they quickly got back into place and insisted I "take another picture, mommy!" I think we've created a crew of diva starlets.

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  1. cherelliDecember 3, 2013 at 10:48 AM

    Such beautiful kids your body made:) Hang in there for some good days....but perhaps dome reading on propping up your immune system: it seems to have been a stressful year in other ways, look at deep breathing techniques (once the coughing is done!), EFT, cod liver oil (Vit A), vitamin D (should always take in winter anyway) and probiotics ( yoghurt doesn't count, get the multimillion bacteria capsules to overcome antibiotic damage)....and most importantly - sleep! Nourish your body, it isn't letting you down, just letting you know it needs some nurturing at the moment....

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    1. MichelleDecember 5, 2013 at 6:44 PM

      Thank you so much. Great feedback, I always appreciate your thoughts. Sleep, for one, has been sorely lacking. I'm sure my body needs tlc and that's why it's better I didn't get the surgery. Cutting into it is not tlc. Thanks!

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  2. cherelliDecember 3, 2013 at 10:51 AM

    PS. I like when people are real with their emotions when blogging - makes me feel better about having my bad days too...plus it provides balance to your super positive posts and makes you human :)

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    1. MichelleDecember 5, 2013 at 6:44 PM

      Thanks. Sometimes I feel like a whiny malcontent so this is a good reminder.

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  3. KristyDecember 3, 2013 at 12:36 PM

    What cherelli said! I can't believe how big the kiddos are! Sorry about the disappointment.

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    1. MichelleDecember 5, 2013 at 6:45 PM

      I've come around to the idea it's for the best. My body is not in a great place to be cut unto right now.

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  4. ShannonDecember 3, 2013 at 9:25 PM

    WOW- that sux. I am sorry this complicated time has grown even more complicated for you. Heres hoping for happy and healthy news soon!

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    1. MichelleDecember 5, 2013 at 6:48 PM

      Thanks! I've settled into it and feel much better. My next post should be a bit more positive :)

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  5. UnknownDecember 8, 2013 at 12:51 PM

    Many thanks! This post seems to have done the trick!

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