Saturday, January 3, 2009

We're Almost Ready!

Miguel and I have been readying the baby room. I read advice somewhere that suggested getting the bulk of the work done before the 3rd trimester so you could relax and focus on the easy details during the last few months. I'm feeling really good that we've done that. We've taken our time too, which is nice. A few months ago we emptied out the nursery-to-be and dealt with selling or donating the contents. Miguel touched up the walls and readied the room for painting. We picked out the furniture and ordered it in early November and it arrived in early December. We painted a few weeks ago, after going through some color decision-making issues. We started out with various shades of blue and ended up with two shades of green. Finally we brought the furniture in from the garage and set it up. Fun, fun, fun.

Here are Miguel and I showing off the room. We plan to use the bassinet as the little man's nap spot during the day in the living room. Here's one of me in the glider.

I put a diaper on that little bear and he's been our stand in baby ever since. Miguel has worked so hard, seeing this picture reminds me that we used to have curtains up for closet doors and he painted and installed those new white wood doors. You can't really tell in these pictures but the lower part of the walls are sage green and the top part is a lighter green. I love it, it looks gorgeous with the dark wood.

So we have a ton more stuff to get, mainly clothes, bottles, diapers, a high chair, a stroller, carseats...the list seems to be never ending. Oh, and I would love to get some books, like Dr. Seuss and some baby books or whatever. I know you don't really need some of these things but.... Whenever I go in and look at this room I'm filled with gratitude at how fortunate I feel. Fortunate to be having a little baby, fortunate to be able to prepare a space for him, fortunate to be warm and safe with a loving husband and family. So many people in the world have so little. We're not rich, and yet we are as rich as I could hope for.

Change of subject... I've had a secret fear creeping up on me as I've watched my thighs get bigger and how out-of-habit I am when it comes to exercise and counting points/calories, etc. I found myself wondering the other day, "How will I get back to where I was?". Then I stopped myself and made the same deal I made when I first started on this journey back in February of '07, all I need to do is get back to meetings. I don't have to get on my bike and ride 50 miles, I don't have to run out the door for a 45 minute jog, I don't have to stick to my allotted points all day every day. I just need to go to meetings. The rest will fall into place. And I know I can make it to meetings. Realizing I will start at the beginning and not have to suddenly be back near the finish line eased that creeping feeling of dread.

I can't tell you how much I weigh right now because I don't know. I'm only weighing at doctor's appointments. But here's a pic I took yesterday of me at 30 weeks pregnant. I feel like my belly is so much bigger than it looks. And with 10-12 weeks to go I get nervous thinking about just how big it will get!

So I'm dutifully reading my hypnobirthing book and am looking forward to the class. I don't have any illusions about not feeling any pain in labor but I am building up my confidence in being able to manage it. I need to start listening to I Am Woman as I drift off to sleep. That part about pain seems particularly relevant :)

♫ Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman ♫